counting down

im turning twenty-one in less than 24 hours. well, this must be the biggest step ive ever made in my whole life.

i quit my job last week, hence, i have been bumming around, filling up application forms and facing an interview in another company. and i will start my training on the seventh. hopefully, this job could bring out the best in me, in my life and definitely my persona. im really crossing my fingers for this.

relationship is at its best. i have been very happy with it. i could say that i could never ask for more than being with him.the past months have been filled with gladness, adventure,chaos (kidding) and whole lotta love.=) its those moments that you just want to be with him even for a split second. or talk to him and imagine waking one morning that you see him by your side. so my wish for this is to make it last a lifetime.

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As for myself, I wish to be successful in my path. like i dont have to worry about my work if it sucked or something. i just wanna be appreciated. i guess thats why i searched for a new job. that no matter how hard i tried for adam's, mb just couldn't see the best that i could offer. or like mam amor said, maybe I?m fit somewhere else. Somewhere I could unleash my talents. Actually, when joedy told me I was really good, I cried because I never thought that the people I least expect would be impressed at me.

Hon keeps on asking me what I wanted for my birthday. I honestly don?t know if I should answer. It?s just that I?m not used to expecting a lot of material things for my birthday. I?m very much satisfied if I would receive something or not.

I remembered one person who said he gives flowers to his friends on their birthday, well, I know I?m never going to receive one from him, but then, he could really come across my mind when it comes to this part of the year. I don?t know, I just wish we could?ve stayed friends. I?m not sure. But when I think of it, I know I could get hurt. Maybe because for the months that we?ve kept in touch, I felt really special, but after that, when I felt you were invisible, I led myself to move on.

?.and frankly, I am very much happy with my life with hon. I had everything when I won you back.=)

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Saw YOU ARE THE ONE with Tita Chat, Ate Pinky, Joedy and Gerdah this afternoon. It?s nice to be with them again, And Sam, oh Sam! You are simply dreamy! Haha!

Have to go fix myself up to meet family. Gtg.